Does anyone here have problems with closing their eyes or keeping them open sometimes because everything's.. mushy and wobbely and really far away?
Keeping them closed for me because I feel like something’s going to be next to my face when I open them if that’s what you mean?
sometimes when i'm talking to people i suddenly get this physical feeling like my chest hurts and my throat closes and i think 'i know i'm alone. this person is talking to me to spare my feelings. i'm just an annoyance, they can't possibly feel any connection w/ me at all'. i know i have paranoid delusions and stuff, so could this be a delusion? and is the physical feeling normal? it just hurts so much and then i get all weird and the person thinks they offended me :(
It’s a mix between low self esteem and a delusion, so yeah. This is always hard and I wish I could give you advice on this but I haven’t been able to fix this issue myself.
My mother violently suffocated me until I passed out when I had a serious and uncontrollable attack in January. I've never told anyone until now.
I’m sorry anon :( I hope one day you feel comfortable telling other people this, it will help.
i've never been hospitalized per se, but had to stay over night at a psychiatric ward. the most traumatic part for me was that i wasn't able to smoke, which may sound petty, but is important because to me because it helps for coping with symptoms, stress, etc. slept on a reclining chair with florescent lights on, was given a heavy dose of ativan and woke up the next morning feeling like a zombie.
That’s not fair that they didn’t let you smoke, I know it helps a lot people.
Oh drat. I just said that a lot of it has to deal with your attitude and the hospital. Obviously if you go into a hospital believing it will be terrible, it probably will be (although some hospitals aren't as good as others). I fought it for a long time but once I finally accepted that most of the people there actually want to help, things got WAY better. And just be honest about how you feel there...if you don't like it they should help you find something/somewhere more suitable
To the Hospital anon- I was in a mental health clinic for people under 18 last summer, and I absolutely hated it. It gave me PTSD, and my depression and self harm was worse then when I went there. I would try a therapist you see once a week first, because if you don't like them, it's easier to get out. Good luck, and I hope you recover xo
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